Section 12
Poem from a recovering author that was molested/abused as a child
Unexpected
You pursued me when I was young and not able to see. You found me when I wasn't sure, of who I wanted to be
While I was hurting and running away, Just trying to escape from all my pain
You just wanted to feel good and play your little game, Sadly you didn't realize that you were deceived and insane
You said that you were a friend that wanted to help me out, Why couldn't you find a true Godly way? Why did you have to abuse me? Why did this type of game, did you have to play? So that years later, you would let me think I was gay?
You think that just because sex feels good, It would be ok to use it this way? You actually thought this would take me away from my pain? Well, you were just deceived and blind, All your sinful efforts were done in vain
Now I realize what you actually made me feel, You made me feel dirt cheap, You made me feel like a trashy piece of useless meat, You made me confused, You made me one of the abused
You sinful pawn! Shame comes upon you! Soon you will have to see the Truth!
God and psychology has taught me, This happened to you when you were young and not able to see, I was young and you did it to me, That still does not make it right, You don't take advantage of and rape kids who can't fight
God blessed me with knowledge and Grace, Now I beat this fight, He has brought me much wisdom and golden sight
He showed me that what you did was not love, What you did was not part of His spirit, that's like a dove, Christ showed me that your abuse was not an escape for me, It was an evil mind trick that was harmful in everyway, I was just too young and not able to see
God showed me that the reason I didn't say "stop", The reason I didn't tell mom, dad or a cop, I was overhwhelmed with these feelings at a tender young age, So much that I didn't see the mentally loaded 20 gauge, I couldn't see the bullets that would soon be shot, There was NO way I could have known the plot!
Christ showed me that because this happened, Doesn't mean I'm gay, He tells me this in the truth that his words portray
So for this grace and for these golden reasons, I do not follow in your sin for satan, No! I do not follow in that way, I have found healing through my pain, God has revealed the hidden scheme and made me sane
Anger kills me twenty three times one hundred and two, So I forgive you! For you are deceived, If you confess and ask, then God will forgive you too
He understands our deception, He says seek and turn from your wicked ways and be set free "come on, trust me, it feels good" HEY! Evil one why don't you stop the pain your causing, Seek Christ's face and you will see
Now it's time to open my heart and learn some more, Now it's time to keep my heart open along this golden tour, It's time to teach and warn others about this abuse, Christ has used this deception and pain, To give me yet another purpose, Another way to make this demon slain...
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Section 13
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